i don't know

When you appeared out of thin air, you opened scars that I thought were healed.  As if you planned my great death and rebirth you offered your thin bandages, but you helped me bleed myself nearly to death.  After you came and proclaimed your seemingly undead love, you promised to stay and wait.  You promised me you.  You boldly cried your patience and your longing.   With time that passed not even the measure of a fortnight you had forgotten your words.  You had eaten your words and undoubtedly lied with those words. 

I went to look for you.  I went to find you.  I found you, but not as you promised.  You had a secret life.  Was this life one you were willing to abandon if I allowed you to jump in my arms that night?  Was this a new life you had just began?  Was this life one you chose to help you forget me? 

When you left me with nothing but the memory of your voice, I had to find the answers to all the questions you left broken.  I thought I had the answers.  However, you leave me doubting myself.  My mind and my peace I fooled myself into believing I had.  Now you leave me with greater questions.  With many more questions.  You leave me in turbulence and uncertainty.      

You hurt me.  You destroyed me.  You won.