Maybe

My  thought, feelings and words are usually so easy to find.  

Easy to write and to express.  

Lately, I've been a little lost.  I have quite a few posts saved as drafts, 

but for some reason I cant seem to get myself to post them.  

Before, I was keeping myself safe, my heart safe and emotions safe.

Safe from others and anyone who wish to harm them.  

Lately, I've found myself battling within myself.  

Allowing people in and when they get to close, shove them out!  

Back to a safe distance!

Safe for me and safe for them.  

It's like I cant figure out if I'm feeling happy or anxious.

If I'm feeling love or lust 

or joy or happiness.  

By far the goodness in my life outweighs the negativity.  

I should be able to write about how great the feelings are,

how sweet the smiles are and how warm the laughter is.  

I guess Im just scared that if I share too much or if I get too happy,

something or someone is going to come into my life and try 

and take that away from me.  

Maybe I'll be proven wrong, 

Maybe I've found my match.

Maybe...